Trish Heinrich

Mother, Author, Hero

Month: May 2017

Five Simple Things: How to be an Author and a Parent

How in the world can an author get anything done with two small kids and no childcare?

That’s the million dollar question isn’t it?  The one I’ve tuned into countless podcasts for the answer to, only to be disappointed when the author spends five minutes on how great their nanny, or day care is and that’s it.

What about those of us who just can’t afford child care, be it daycare or a nanny?

Well, through trial and error, I have figured out how to write a book and start an Indie Author business without going crazy. I’m not saying it’s a perfect system by any stretch. And maybe a few of you out there have some tools and tricks that I won’t mention here; if so PLEASE share.  But if you need some simple guidance to get you through the weeds until your kids are in full time school, then read on friend.

First of all, basic information:

My daughter is seven and in first grade, so for most of the time she’s taken care of. Except, of course, for snow days, and holiday breaks.  My son is four and is in his first year of preschool three mornings a week. Now, that preschool time is HEAVEN because I get two and a half uninterrupted hours of work during what is my prime creative time. I know that not everyone can afford most preschools. There are some programs through community centers that have very low or no cost preschool programs that you might want to check out if you’re interested.  On to the good stuff!

#1-My Secret Weapon: Quiet Time

I am an introvert. My children are extroverts. If you know what this means, you know that they have been steadily sucking the energy out of me since day one. (No, I’m not saying my kids are vampires…not exactly.)  When my son was an infant and my daughter had started to phase out her nap, I knew that I just couldn’t get through the day without that precious break. So, I instituted Quiet Time.

At first, my daughter would stay in her bed and play quietly for about two hours. You read that right: two hours. When she got too bored with staying in bed, I let her out of bed, as long as she stayed in her room. Now, this took time to perfect. She hated being alone, I mean with a fiery passion. But now, at age seven, she asks for this time when she’s not in school. As she’s gotten older, I’ve changed the activities she can do. Now, she gets a little Kindle or Mine Craft time, she can do art projects with markers, things like that.  My son is also on Quiet Time since phasing his nap out this year. For him, the concept of quiet play time is hard, but he’s getting better.

This time in the middle of day, which used to be recharge time, has become Author time for me.  I give myself a forty-five minute lunch, during which I eat and do something that fills my inner well. Then, it’s work. Some days I get an hour and half, other days between running upstairs to help my son with the potty or ask him to be quiet, it’s more like forty-five minutes. I’ve found that working against a hard time constraint helps me focus better. I’ve written four thousand word chapter in an hour because I just had to.

Quiet Time has been stretched out to about two and a half hours these days, and the kids are far from bored. In addition to a little Kindle time, they have some art supplies, my son has his huge Hot Wheels track and cars, puzzles, books, dolls. They have a very rich imagination, so usually they end up playing there. Sometimes I go to check on my son and he’s asleep on the floor or in his bed, which isn’t bad either.  Basically, they both like Quiet Time, and I feel like I’m not only getting some work time but teaching them a valuable life skill: How to build down time into your life. Which is something we all need.

#2-Use Screen Time Strategically.

This might be a bit controversial. Screen time is a huge hot button issue with many parents, I get it. But I find that without child care, this is a necessity for me if I’m going to be an indie author.  During holiday breaks when I’m home alone with both kids  I need a few extra hours to build an author business.

Now, before you think I just plop my kids down in front of the TV for unlimited shows, let me say this: We limit their screen time. They get less screen time than the average American child their age, but also more than I’d like if I’m being honest.  They will get about an hour either in the morning or afternoon depending on how the day plays out. This is in addition to the Kindle (or in my daughter’s case Mine Craft) time they get for Quiet Time.  The parent controls on the Kindle Fire allows me to set a time limit, so they don’t play for the full Quiet Time.

My son’s time limit is anywhere from thirty minutes to an hour. My daughter’s time, because she‘s older, is around an hour to an hour and a half. Now, combined with their TV time that may sound like a lot. Like I said, in an ideal world, they wouldn’t have that much.

Maybe your kids are the kind that will sit and play wonderfully on their own for hours on end, never needing your attention or input. That’s not my kids. They will play with each other for long stretches, but it’s loud and rambunctious. That’s  not something I want to squelch, it’s who they are.  Though there are boundaries to how they can play in the house, I also give them freedom. Having said that, listening to your kids play loudly and eventually devolve into a fight, isn’t really conducive to getting work done. So if you’ve been feeling hot pokers of guilt in your heart every time you put on Sesame Street just so you can edit one chapter, STOP! There’s nothing wrong with it, seriously!  It’s a tool at your disposal, it’s there to be used. So use it.

#3-Your Partner Can Parent Too.

Growing up the only time I really saw my Dad take over from my Mom was when she was horribly sick, like barely able to get off the couch sick. Any other time, my Mom was the primary care giver even when my Dad was home. Not that he was absent or anything, but it was understood that my Dad worked all day, had a hard commute and when he got home he was to be left alone while my Mom finished dinner and we set the table. After dinner, then we could engage with Dad.

It’s been a challenge for me to shift that thinking, no matter how feminist I am. When you’re raised with a particular example of relationships, your subconscious defaults there.  To this day, it’s sometimes hard for me to ask my husband to take lead with the kids so I can get some creative time. This has NOTHING to do with him. He has always been fully supportive of me being an author, in that respect I am incredibly lucky.

One thing that helps, though, is if I ask him a day or two ahead of time. That way he’s not caught flat footed and I don’t feel like I’m springing something on him. The way we’ve worked it out goes something like this: I fix the kids dinner, and sit with them or do dishes. Hubby comes home in the middle of their dinner time, after changing his clothes, he takes over. I put on head phones and write for about an hour. Then he takes the kids upstairs and gets them ready for bed. I come upstairs in time to kiss them good-night, sometimes to read to one of them.  Then, he and I enjoy dinner just the two of us either talking or watching a show.  This sounds really simple, but I’d bet it’s not something you’ve considered.

For me I would feel bad that my husband was “doing my job”, as well as guilty because we weren’t having a family dinner. Turns out the kids don’t mind. On these nights they get some of their favorite foods like mac and cheese or chicken nuggets and fries. And, it makes family dinners all the more special for all of us.  On average I ask him to take over with the kids about twice a week, more if I’m sick or it’s been a particularly hard day as a Mom (because let’s face it, stay at home parenting is one of the hardest jobs out there without trying to be author on top of it).

#4-Specific Scheduling.

This one took a while to figure out. I love using an old fashioned paper planner, but I wasn’t using it optimally. I heard an author on a podcast say once that she will assign certain days of the week as either Writing days or Business days or Marketing days. If she only has a few hours that day,  she spends them doing whatever she’s assigned to that day. That has really helped because I can get overwhelmed with all the things that need doing as an indie author.

So, on the days my son has preschool, those are writing days. Any time I have for work on those days, I work on my novel.  The two other days of the week are for business development, education, website, blogging, or marketing. Since I started doing this I’ve been WAY more productive.

I usually take Sunday and look over my week, making sure that what I’ve assigned for each day works. Sometimes I drill down into specifics for each day if necessary. If it’s a holiday break, then sometimes I have to shift things around, but I still try to adhere to this as much as possible.  I also do some basic menu planning for the week so I know when I need to stop working in the afternoon in order to start cooking. I’ve found that this helps a lot because by about four o’clock, I can sometimes have some pretty bad decision fatigue. Which brings me to-

#5-Take A Personal Day

I know what you’re thinking:  “But I have a novel to finish, butts to wipe, lunches to make, puke to clean up, Lego’s to trip over, doll heads to glue back on….”    Yeah, I know. I do too. But we are USELESS if we are tapped out. And let’s face it, being a Stay at Home Parent  alone can zap our energy reserves.  I had to learn this over and over again the hard way because I hate taking time off.  Sometimes, however, my body will just shut down and I have no choice. Those are the bad kinds of breaks, the ones that take us out for a week or more.

So, I had to ask myself: Do I want pneumonia or a day of being a little lazy?  I’ve decided one day every few weeks is a much better option. I usually plan a day around my menstrual cycle because that wipes me out. Then I will reserve another day during the month that is for myself. Instead of creative time or marketing during the times I talked about, I read or watch TV. Sometimes I’ll catch up on podcasts but usually not because that ends up feeling a little like work.   Taking a personal day is still a challenge for me.  Sometimes my husband has to remind me that it’s necessary.  Sometimes I find myself tense and thinking about my To Do list when I’m supposed to be resting. That’s when I take a deep breath,  tell myself that what I’m doing is OK.

In the end, Heroic Moms and Dads, trying to be creative with kids is hard and can make you feel like you’re all alone. But you’re not, I’m right there with you.  If you need a pep talk, if you have questions or need to vent, then I’m your gal pal! Leave something in the comments, join the conversation on Facebook or feel free to email me.  I look forward to hearing from you!

Creative Nemesis: Fear of Failure

Every time I thought about launching this website I would feel the cold dread of fear in my gut.

Yep,  I was absolutely terrified of pushing that one little button and letting the whole world see my author website.


Because I was afraid people would think it was lame. Or that it showed just how little I knew about being an author. Or that no one would read it.

Basically, I was battling an age old nemesis: Fear. Specifically the fear of  falling flat on my face and failing.

In the days leading up to launching this site, I felt my heart speed up any time I thought about launch day. I’d laugh nervously, and then do a little hop and twirl to get the nervous energy out.  I knew that once I launched this website, that it was one more step that got me closer to doing this other, really big, really scary, really amazing thing that I’d dreamed of since I was a kid:

Publishing my first book.

Sometimes, success can make us feel far more fear than not trying at all.

I’m not sure why it’s more panic inducing than failure, but I do know that there have been so many times I’ve felt this. And every time, I take some deep breaths and tell myself to calm down. I look at what I’ve done, I look at where I was and then I square my shoulders and make a promise to myself that no matter how hard it is, I will do everything I can to keep this success going.

To be honest, I’ve had a lot of what people would call failures. The web series I produced with my husband and our best friend, for instance. Critically and among the Seattle film community it was a success. People loved it! But we could never figure out how to monetize it, and it never went anywhere. Some would say we failed. And for a while I would cry every time I thought of that series because I loved it so much and it hadn’t gotten any traction.

But then, one day, I realized that I was looking at it all wrong. We had dared to do something most people just sit around and BS about. We had made something funny, and intelligent and original that resonated with people. No, we never got very far out of the starting gate, in spite of all our hard work. But if you look at writers and producers who are “over night successes” you find out that they had to write and produce a lot of “failures” and build off that before their break out hit.

I look at that series now, and I see a success because we were brave enough to do it, and do it well.  It’s one of the things I’m most proud about in my creative life; so far anyway.

Which brings me back to this website.

It’s probably not perfect. I will likely retool, and change things over the next year as I learn more about being an Indie Author. And that’s how it’s supposed to be. If I waited for things to be perfect, I’d never do anything, and neither would you. We can’t wait for perfect to start our creative lives.

Perfect doesn’t show up, ever. It’s like Waiting For Guffman. It just doesn’t happen. And, just like Waiting For Guffman, we will do a lot of stupid, embarrassing, unnecessary things if we insist on waiting for perfect.

Instead, we must strive and learn and make every creative offering better than the last one. Maybe that’s part of the fear, because it’s never ending, really hard work. We put our heart out there and let people trample and take a dump on it. For those of us that feel called to a life of Creativity, we don’t just do this once. No, we do it dozens; if we’re lucky, hundreds of times.  And every time we are afraid that this will be the moment everyone sees what a fraud we are.

Right now, I feel that. That Inner Critic is pouring on the Impostor Syndrome with relish. And I’m shaking, terrified.

But also determined.

He hasn’t beaten me before, and I’m not about to hand the bastard a victory now.

So go ahead Inner Critic, go for it. I may cry and curl up for a minute, but then I’m going to brush it all off, put up my fists and knock you on your butt.

Do you have something you’re afraid of doing? Have you already done it? Are you on the threshold of doing it?

I’d love to hear all about it, to share this crazy journey with you. Feel free to leave a comment below, on my Facebook page, or sign up to my monthly email newsletter where you’ll get exclusive content and a round up of my blog posts for the month.

Here’s to lots of wonderful successful failures!

A New Urban Fantasy Hero to Love

Unleash (Spellhounds Book One) by Lauren Harris

I will admit that I have become burned out on Urban Fantasy. I often find it predictable, recycling the same old magic systems, problems, etc.

While Unleash does have some familiar elements, it still managed to fee fresh and exciting.

Here’s a little about the book from the author’s blurb before we go on.

Helena Martin doesn’t know who she hates more, the sorcerers who fired the magic laced bullet or the gang-lord master who used her mother as a shield. It’s not the price she expected for escaping magical slavery, nor is the unstable power now pulsing in her veins.

Caught between her former master’s hunters and the Guild of Sorcerers determined to kill them, she finds a safe haven at a dog rescue willing to take in a different kid of stray. But Helena’s newly-unleashed power is a beacon for her enemies. And they’re threatening the first place she’s ever thought of as home.

 I give this book 4 out of 5 stars, and here’s why

So yes, there are some elements here I’ve seen before. The difference? In the execution. The book starts off at break neck pace, doesn’t slow for several chapters. When it finally did I felt like I’d been running a marathon.  There are calm moments that are interrupted by fights, attacks and the unveiling of truth. The pacing and structure was spot on and only fell to explaining things once. Which in a book with a unique magic system, is pretty impressive.

And yes, you read that right, I said unique magic system.  I have become so bored with magic systems that were either too complex because the author was in love with their world building.  Or so simple that there were giant logical holes in the system that it was part of the reason I stopped reading the genre. This magic system, however, is based on Mandalas working with different metals; iron, gold, etc. And, since blood has iron, there is also a type of magic where you can use Mandalas and blood. The scene where the history of this is explained could’ve verged on the info dumping side if the author hadn’t built up to that moment the way she did. I didn’t care that I was getting a little history lesson because I was nervous about what the Guild was going to do the hero I had become very invested in. As well as just knowing that the bounty hunters were probably about to attack.

And that leads me to our hero: Helena Martin

I’ll admit that I also have been tired of the beautiful, thin and all powerful hero in Urban Fantasy. While Helena is pretty, thin, white and does have unique power, she is clueless about how to use it and so the author uses that as an opportunity to teach us a little about the magical system and about Helena too. The kind of childhood that Helena has had means she doesn’t trust anyone easily. She’s secretive, suspicious and scared. Instead of neatly resolving all of this so that Helena can boink the cute Korean guy quicker, or dumping it because it would be easier to write (like I’ve seen other authors do), the author full on embraces it. We see Helena’s painful PTSD, we see her inability to grieve for those she’s lost, the fear of trusting, the fear of bringing pain and death to anyone she might begin to care for. The author uses the past she’s given Helena to take us on that journey with her. It’s awesome, and even a little frustrating because I just wanted her to kiss the cute Korean guy already! By the time we reach the end of the book, though, I felt that Helena’s journey was all the more satisfying because of how true to the character the author stayed.

Even though Helena as a  white female is nothing new, the author surrounds her with a diverse cast of characters. The already mentioned Korean guy, a curvaceous lesbian, a woman with mental health struggles, an East Indian a sorceress, and a mixed race woman who runs a dog rescue.  I loved seeing the real world represented so well, without stereo types. In fact, there is much poking fun of said stereo types.

I also loved the ever present menace of the villain, who is “on screen” for very little time. The Guild was far more present, as well as the creepy bounty hunters. We see him at the beginning and the end, but I felt his presence throughout the entire book. I’ve seen other authors try to pull off something like this.  But they only succeeded in making it all feel clunky and over done. Not so here. I knew that this guy was haunting her every step, even when she thought he was dead.

One of the only things that kept me from giving it five stars was the formatting. There were some serious issues at certain points. These included key pieces of dialogue missing or combined with another characters, which made it difficult to figure out what was happening. There was also extra words in sentences that stopped my flow of reading. Sometimes this happened in the middle of a really tense moment. I wouldn’t make a big deal out of a handful of such things, but this was a rampant problem throughout the book and became frustrating by the end.

Overall, I would highly recommend this to anyone who is or has been a fan of Urban Fantasy.  I can’t wait to see what happens next!

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